Suitability

There I was, staring into the computer screen at a total loss, not a single word typed onto that essay, not a single drip of inspiration.

A 300-word-at-least essay on why you should be given the PSC provisional scholarship. 

After 10 minutes, I gave up. No doubt i was looking for a scholarship and was quite happy to be nominated for the PSC... beneath it all i doubt i wanted to work for the Government. Errhmm, it's not about the notion of serving for the government, cause ultimately you're serving the people (which is a fact that you can find much motivation from). I guess it's just that the idea of being posted to a statutory board or ministry is a slight turn-off. Though i wouldn mind a career at ministry of community, youth and sports. (YEA! I guess it'd be a good position to effect change and make a difference) I heard from Dion (Pre-U Sem one) that they'd put you wherever they want, not based on your choice. She's doing a PhD in health sciences, but they thought of putting her in policy-making. Oh well.

OK back to point, I think the freedom of being able to choose one's job or career is a cornerstone to living your life to the fullest. Scholarships do make people serve bonds, yes, but glancing back at when that scholar signed that agreement, was he even sure that he wanted that as a career?

At this point in time, right after 'A's, truthfully, i speculate that almost 60 or 70% of the people miserably waiting for their results are still not really sure of what they'd want to pursue as a career. If this is so, what more sign a scholarship? It could very well be likened to serving as a highly-paid slave, if all that the scholar does is count down to the time his bond ends, when he'd be free to leave. 

But then again, those who take up scholarships have scintillating A level result slips and that only makes up less than 10% of the cohort. Of which, there should be more students that know what they want yea. 

After all, even if theyre not really certain of what may come in their years with the place they sign up the scholarship at, in time to come, impressionable minds may coalesce with loyalty, influence, and whatever attached feelings for the company/group, resulting in that brainiac dutifully committed to whatever company, yeaa. 

Besides all the pride and ego that it may bestow, Uni certs only bring us our first job. After which, all that matter is the resume. And even more importantly, the personality, i guess.

Hmm, i know what i want. Yeap. 

Like a flower, it roots from self-believe, stems up to self-confidence and blooms in passion. 

We can't grow a sunflower in the tropics, or the bougain villea in the snow. 

eNTJ?

Hello everybody. I'm still alive.

but..

Haaha okay my blog's been dead. 

Even though every personality test that I've ever done says i'm an extrovert, I have lotsa qualms about all those assumption-ridden tests. That particular ENTJ test even told me i'd be an executive. Yea rigght, my wishes. Hmmmm

But i guess i'm very much an introvert sometimes too. 

Well you can see, my blog posts aren't much about my thoughts, but more about the more-interesting things that I do. 

Matin told me, "You should post more on what you think, let the whole world know more about the mysterious eugene."

Hmmm oh well. Do I give people the impression that there' s so much more to me and you're not gonna know them? Hah ponder ponder............... crap, i think so. Must be some heart VS. head issue again. 

Yea frankly i must say, sometimes (or many times, oops) i tend to keep thoughts to myself. Well, i think it's thanks to this silence in opinion that allows me to have neutrality and sanctity in perception, which is of course, a good thing. Keeping thoughts to myself doesn mean im not opinionated, but i'd rather hear yours than speak mine yea.

But then again, that's maybe why I can't argue extremely well in GP essays. HAHA

OK been to genting with Jack Chenyang Qian Jernan and Clarisse! Was quite okaay, but weather was extremely good. Nice and cool like Perth, but with more cigarette smoke and exhaust fumes errrgh. 

We were super lucky in the trip. REALLY lucky. Post more about it soon (:

5.5 more weeks to enlistment. OH well, i must have no regrets and up till now, i haven't had any. 

As Jason Mraz sings, 

"Live high, live mighty, live righteously. 

Take it easy, live high"