Hold sway

Cooooool.

In a nutshell, i've been pretty much passing time meaningfully, doing things I love, backed with fulfilling and gratifying incentives for both myself and others.

Joshua Cheng asked me what i was up to, and very simply in a sentence, i replied "Coaching, teaching and appreciating life."

HAHA oh boy. 

Right, so time has cometh. Results are set to release next friday. Hoho.

All the hype of studying for so many years just to take the A level exams come right down to the result slip. The more number of As, the better your uni course, the brighter your prospects. (not a direct correlation though) 

No one can really deny the magnitude of such an event, which somehow or rather opens up pathways for us to take in time to come. I was thinking whether my life would change upon result release, or whether its effect would change my ideals in anyway. It's possible to see the result slip as the ticket to success for future. (and without a doubt, that's pretty darn true, in hothouse singapore, where gleamy-eyed students desire for academic excellence)

Not only was i thinking, but importantly, there was the element of excitement, fear and hype.

Night before GP paper. Hahaa

Before econs. OK don't read too much into the coffee can. I was perfectly sane. Just bored. Heh

Last 2 papers

Hmmmf, well, after awhile some things started to come to mind. First of all, in the most basic and practical sense, regardless of how much anyone could worry, what's done was done and no matter how anyone feels for the results, the grades are not going to change a single bit. So why not welcome it with open arms and accept what's given?

At the very least, I believed i tried my very best under the circumstances at those moments back then, from preparation up till the exams. No regrets, no regrets.

Secondly, to paint life in larger strokes and see the BIG BIG picture, what do A level results really mean to life?

Hmmm. Put it this way, if everything i've ever lived for in the past years is going to be affected by that single RESULT SLIP, an indication of academic performance, then it'd mean there isn much value for all other beautiful things in life i ought to appreciate, so to speak.

As much as the result slip may bear my name and show my grades, how much does it show who I really am?

If any one person is just defined by the number of "A"s he get, i'd dare say we've not understood him.

If any one person is only bothered about the number of "A"s he get and treats it as a life and death judgement, i'd dare say he's been living in vain.

People who aspire for straight As can break down and cry when they only get 2 or 3. They might feel like all is lost and everything that they have lived for (errm, which is studies?), all the effort, feeling, hardwork and sweat, has not paid off.  Just like how students under hothouses in China and India break down and jump off buildings or hang themselves when they fail to meet their expectations.

This only shows how much they have founded their life on academic achievements. 

Other than whatever the dreadful education system 'indoctrinates' in them, what do they believe in?

Well, i sure do stand for my beliefs. And it sure is comforting to know that the result slip wont reflect who i really am to any considerably large extent.

ps. right i've been stuck with a post for super long, i'd put it up soon